PAA

She is an angel , she is like a doll, cute , innocent, sweet and lovely …this is a baby gal…..

A father holding a child for the first time can feel the love and warmth of the newly born with a sense of having something of his own life in his hand ….

The bond between a father and a daughter is always very special and delicate. Being the third gal child in family I was not told much about the feelings shared among them when I opened up my eyes for the first time, as everyone was expecting me to be a boy…No doubt I came with a shock after so much of efforts in terms of praying and disturbing GOD almost continuously for 9 months and indulging in   all kinds of TANTRA & MANTRA….(My grandparents desperately wanted  a boy)……

The first impression I made was……I am here as what I am ….., who cares what u expected or thought of…..

Well, my dad has always been Non expressive…so hardly u could sense what’s goin on…

My acts….since childhood were very rebel in nature…I proved everyone completely wrong as though I was a gal but proved to be more like a boy….. My mom was always supportive which reflected in the repercussions faced by others…

I always considered that my dad was disappointed though he didn’t say anything and he gave almost everything that I demanded..

But I always missed out something….that bond…I kno my sis’s were also a lil apprehensive when it comes to talkin to dad..we kno he is over possessive and concerned & loves us so much …but there was always an unfulfilled desire of becoming a proud father of a SON..

I was ignorant till the time my mom told me that though he never expresses what he feels about his daughters but he felt proud when I got 85% in board, cleared the RPET and scored a place in engineering college and became the first Engineer in our family….got my job and proceeded for MBA …again the first to do so….He was content and happy to see how I n my sisters were doing in our lives….we are proud to have a father like PAA …I always admired him for being a self made man, the only bread earner in a huge joint family who made our lives so comfortable that we never realized that he was growing older…loosing his strength and that was the moment we thought of his unfulfilled desire …..that made me to think Why it was important for him…

Paa, I kno you will never speak , you will never express and you will never read this but just want to say --- luv u Paa…

All what I did and m doin its all cos of u..