Dedicated to My "LOST" Pal

Hold my Hand and Pour some rain,

I m a Lost Soul

Fill my heart and soak the pain

I m a lost soul

Look into my eyes, I know u can see through

U never let me do this , coz u hav the clue

All my life I prayed to you

All my way I looked upto u

Show me the path

I m a lost soul

I take the oath, I will follow

I m a lost Soul…

Tamnna

Khwahish bhi tu,dil ki tarish bhi tu
Mann ki jo mane to pahli guzarish bhi tu
Hain tere sath jo mere sapne
Meri manzil bhi tu, dil ki farmayish bhi tu
Main chahata hoon tu bhi chale sath mere,
Main chahata hoon ek pal baithe paas tu mere
Guzar gaya jo lamha tere bagair,
Rah gaya jo ye armaan bankar kahar
Jaana yahi hai , paana hai har haal me tujhe
Rahguzar bhi tu, pahli aur akhiri meri ajmayish bhi tu..

PAA

She is an angel , she is like a doll, cute , innocent, sweet and lovely …this is a baby gal…..

A father holding a child for the first time can feel the love and warmth of the newly born with a sense of having something of his own life in his hand ….

The bond between a father and a daughter is always very special and delicate. Being the third gal child in family I was not told much about the feelings shared among them when I opened up my eyes for the first time, as everyone was expecting me to be a boy…No doubt I came with a shock after so much of efforts in terms of praying and disturbing GOD almost continuously for 9 months and indulging in   all kinds of TANTRA & MANTRA….(My grandparents desperately wanted  a boy)……

The first impression I made was……I am here as what I am ….., who cares what u expected or thought of…..

Well, my dad has always been Non expressive…so hardly u could sense what’s goin on…

My acts….since childhood were very rebel in nature…I proved everyone completely wrong as though I was a gal but proved to be more like a boy….. My mom was always supportive which reflected in the repercussions faced by others…

I always considered that my dad was disappointed though he didn’t say anything and he gave almost everything that I demanded..

But I always missed out something….that bond…I kno my sis’s were also a lil apprehensive when it comes to talkin to dad..we kno he is over possessive and concerned & loves us so much …but there was always an unfulfilled desire of becoming a proud father of a SON..

I was ignorant till the time my mom told me that though he never expresses what he feels about his daughters but he felt proud when I got 85% in board, cleared the RPET and scored a place in engineering college and became the first Engineer in our family….got my job and proceeded for MBA …again the first to do so….He was content and happy to see how I n my sisters were doing in our lives….we are proud to have a father like PAA …I always admired him for being a self made man, the only bread earner in a huge joint family who made our lives so comfortable that we never realized that he was growing older…loosing his strength and that was the moment we thought of his unfulfilled desire …..that made me to think Why it was important for him…

Paa, I kno you will never speak , you will never express and you will never read this but just want to say --- luv u Paa…

All what I did and m doin its all cos of u..

Relationships-It's Complicated!!!

Did u ever think of two happily engaged humans..…..Neps……is dt possible…..possibly …not possible..

The reason is quite simple coz we don’t care abt small things n we struggle with big issues which would haven’t  arose  if those small things had been taken care of..

Every individual is different from other and that makes oneself special, different and COMPLEX. We are actually surrounded by good, nice, beautiful and loving humans just like the environment . It is always pure until some external particles mix up and create some action reaction till the equilibrium arrives. That’s how we are, we interact, react and at times get into mess..but the only way out for that is to communicate and harmonize with each other till that equilibrium arrives that’s wat we call as a WIN-WIN situation….but is that really true? Practically possible?

Again a big “NO”…coz this way out is so obvious, straight , simple and meant for normal man…then why the hell  we should follow this as we don’t want a so called obvious, straight , simple and normal solution….cos we think, think and think…which in turn makes us different, unusually good/bad ultimately..COMPLEX…

Think how about talking to your not so good fren on a bad day wen u feel low..heard of pen frnz…mail buddies or phone fren….these are new concepts and relief to those who are not good in face to face communication….i guess the best way of expressing your views is writing…as written words are always powerful than spoken words…the more you write the more you find the depth of conversation..

The only weapon to bridge any gap is to fill the gap…just like the gaps in between the fingers is filled up when you get another hand to hold your hand and fill that gap …not only in your fingers but also in your life…

So all relations, all humans in your life are there to somehow to make your life simpler and happier…the only thing is to find those relations, care for them, and preserve them  for the entire life.

Happy RelationsJJ

M here M here..

M moving but my thoughts r not,
M here M here...
M walking but my shadow doesn't follow me,
M here M here
Surrounded by  my ppl but I feel vaccum 
M Flyin high beyond my reach, M waiting but dont kno y,
M here M here
I close my eyes but M not sleeping,
My thoughts are struggling M waiting but dont kno y....
M here M here....

Journey so far....

Being the youngest one in family, I have been pampered a lot. My childhood was the best time I had but studies made me almost a bookworm. Sincerity, Obedience and zeal to excel in everything have been my key traits in life. Though after completing my graduation, I couldn’t do much when it comes to applying my education in work, therefore proceeded for MBA in HR.

The moment I realized my core competence, I was with 3 yrs of exp in that field. It made me to feel that how well I can manage people can empathize with them and can correlate with their emotions. I believe emotional quotient is higher than intelligence quotient in me. My motto is to be remembered as a learned professional.

On personal front, I am passionate for Dance. I couldn’t devote much time earlier with my engagement in studies and work, therefore learning Jazz now. Though I am keen and

My hobbies include cooking and shopping. I am actually a shopaholic who loves to shop for my

I believe romance lies in minor things which are almost invisible, unnoticed but could be felt.  I believe when it comes to matching up of mental wavelength or compatibility, I am flexible enough to make things fall in place.

I do believe in GOD and am content in whatever he has planned for my life.