My unborn truth

Its difficult to express how it feels to have another life inside you...
As I am growing, I feel more beautiful than ever...I realize how those little finger are touching and scratching the walls of my skin...those sudden kicks and a constant moving head.. At times I guess is it a heel or toe or thumb pointing over my belly  bump...

I wonder how my unborn but still my partner for life time has changed me alot....yes I consider these 9 months as my life time experience.

I think I have turned into a completely different person. Different in my thoughts, in my behavior , in my habits even in my breathing. Because I know whatever I do, I am doing it for myself and my baby. And I am sure its more than the mood swings.

Yes, I promised that I am going to enjoy this period to the fullest making it my happiest time. And with each passing month & day I am learning new things, about my body, my emotions, my strengths and my fears. Which make me more comfortable with my unborn truth.

Waiting eagerly to face it, realize it , touch it and most importantly own it.

For someone I love the Most.....

When I came in your life, you gave me your hand

For you I am a Kid, and will remain like this…….

When I fall ill, you care for me, for anything you dare for me

For you I am a Kid, and will remain like this…….

When I smile, u smile, when I cry, you cry

For you I am a Kid, and will remain like this…….

When I get threatened you hug me, when I am in pain you hug me

For you I am a Kid, and will remain like this…….

You feed me, you treat me, I need you, and you need me

For you I am a Kid, and will remain like this…….

You offer your soft lips to bite, you gave your hand to punch tight

For you I am a Kid, and will remain like this…….

I can Talk to you, I can walk with you, I find peace in your arms, I find warmth in you palm…..

For you I am a Kid, and will remain like this…….

I know I am married to you, I know I am not a Kid but you make me feel

I don’t miss my dad or my mom, coz there is nothing which you can’t heal

O my love, please be with me forever, love me forever,

For you I want to be a Kid and will remain like this.

Wifey Bajaj...

A Roller Coaster Ride!!!!

With different angles and different routes, life has come this way. If I turn back and see my life , it reminds me various things. My childhood(Though not a perfect one but still decent…),My friends(Handful….),Memories of my good old days(Very Few….) and My fights with life……

Everything makes me realize that this is how I have grown up and turned into an individual of some distinctive traits which I call the integration of my thoughts, habits and interests. Having seen a pamper kid and a rebel teen, it was difficult to get into something which can give a direction to this life….

Leading a successful life has been the most desirable dream wherein everything is well defined. Now this dream remains at its place but all the definitions have been changed…. Reason????

A half marathon is over, half remains ….if the strategy adopted in half of the race fails; it is always advisable to change it …

When I look back….I see anxiety, fear and ambiguity throughout this journey …. Whereas the excitement, thrill and amazement were overlooked……which is what a Roller Coaster ride is all about…….

 With this hope and desire ….I start my new Life!!!!!!

MITR….MY FRIEND

Life comes with a purpose. But how many know the purpose of life. And how many succeed to find the meaning of Life. We meet many individuals but only some make their impact on us some change our thoughts and some change our lookout towards life.

This is about someone who just met me an year back and today I consider him as my best buddy. He is a special friend who has changed the way I used to live my life. I never ever thought to befriend with him as we belong to two different schools of thought when it comes to “Life”

When u look at him he  seems to be an average guy next door who doesn’t make his presence realize until you look at his ever smiling face and overwhelming outlook towards minute routine things. His life has not been perfect and till now he hasn’t got anything which he deserves but still he has no complaints against anyone, even if he has he never expresses. A positive thinker, executer and energetic person in all aspects lives his life with no expectations and returns on his investments. He believes in only giving and never asks anything in return. It’s continually surprise me having encountered with such a fantastic human who makes u to believe in light at the end of tunnel.

He has no regrets and enjoys the life just like movies of SRK, full of colors, full of romantic songs and scenic moments universally. If Yash raj has to make DDLJ in Oriya I believe he would be the best choice to make as he can sing in Udit narayan’s voice too …good actor with beautiful voice………… a complete wonderful package…..

The most astonishing factor is his crave to help every single living being on this planet always at a cost of his own comfort. Be it a close friend, office colleague or even a stranger , he is always there in all cases just like “Main hoon na”

Why he has become a case study n subject for my blog is I have never seen a person like him who unintentionally leaves you scratching your head for everything that you do.... to make you feel what is the worth of doing it? At the end of the day if u haven’t made anyone’s day with small little things which appear to be  general ,usual and not so special stuff for you.. but can do wonders if are done in a right manner at right time. Greeting every single person with hundred million dollar smile, singing all the time beautiful songs with twinkling eyes, patting on shoulders irrespective of breed, motivating all genre all the time, facilitating major issues with ease and always moving with a hope to see a new day everyday …….is what differentiates him from others. The USP of him is he never lets u down on anything….

For me he is all ears all the time…occasionally I too give him an ear if I want. I take advantage of his innocence with my extra lavish demand on his time which he happily agrees to fulfill knowingly. My stupid and careless attitude has been overlooked many times to avoid receiving any furious feedback from me and I have been pampered a lot  to make me feel half of my age.

Only due to his efforts that made me to realize my way of making this life meaningful and worth living. I owe him for letting me behave the way I am ……..I appreciate his idea to make me explore different facets of my persona….I have all praises for him to provoke me to figure out best and worst in me……

Above all I respect him for his patience and perseverance because of which I am still with him……

Thank u so much…         

Dedicated to My "LOST" Pal

Hold my Hand and Pour some rain,

I m a Lost Soul

Fill my heart and soak the pain

I m a lost soul

Look into my eyes, I know u can see through

U never let me do this , coz u hav the clue

All my life I prayed to you

All my way I looked upto u

Show me the path

I m a lost soul

I take the oath, I will follow

I m a lost Soul…

Tamnna

Khwahish bhi tu,dil ki tarish bhi tu
Mann ki jo mane to pahli guzarish bhi tu
Hain tere sath jo mere sapne
Meri manzil bhi tu, dil ki farmayish bhi tu
Main chahata hoon tu bhi chale sath mere,
Main chahata hoon ek pal baithe paas tu mere
Guzar gaya jo lamha tere bagair,
Rah gaya jo ye armaan bankar kahar
Jaana yahi hai , paana hai har haal me tujhe
Rahguzar bhi tu, pahli aur akhiri meri ajmayish bhi tu..

PAA

She is an angel , she is like a doll, cute , innocent, sweet and lovely …this is a baby gal…..

A father holding a child for the first time can feel the love and warmth of the newly born with a sense of having something of his own life in his hand ….

The bond between a father and a daughter is always very special and delicate. Being the third gal child in family I was not told much about the feelings shared among them when I opened up my eyes for the first time, as everyone was expecting me to be a boy…No doubt I came with a shock after so much of efforts in terms of praying and disturbing GOD almost continuously for 9 months and indulging in   all kinds of TANTRA & MANTRA….(My grandparents desperately wanted  a boy)……

The first impression I made was……I am here as what I am ….., who cares what u expected or thought of…..

Well, my dad has always been Non expressive…so hardly u could sense what’s goin on…

My acts….since childhood were very rebel in nature…I proved everyone completely wrong as though I was a gal but proved to be more like a boy….. My mom was always supportive which reflected in the repercussions faced by others…

I always considered that my dad was disappointed though he didn’t say anything and he gave almost everything that I demanded..

But I always missed out something….that bond…I kno my sis’s were also a lil apprehensive when it comes to talkin to dad..we kno he is over possessive and concerned & loves us so much …but there was always an unfulfilled desire of becoming a proud father of a SON..

I was ignorant till the time my mom told me that though he never expresses what he feels about his daughters but he felt proud when I got 85% in board, cleared the RPET and scored a place in engineering college and became the first Engineer in our family….got my job and proceeded for MBA …again the first to do so….He was content and happy to see how I n my sisters were doing in our lives….we are proud to have a father like PAA …I always admired him for being a self made man, the only bread earner in a huge joint family who made our lives so comfortable that we never realized that he was growing older…loosing his strength and that was the moment we thought of his unfulfilled desire …..that made me to think Why it was important for him…

Paa, I kno you will never speak , you will never express and you will never read this but just want to say --- luv u Paa…

All what I did and m doin its all cos of u..

Relationships-It's Complicated!!!

Did u ever think of two happily engaged humans..…..Neps……is dt possible…..possibly …not possible..

The reason is quite simple coz we don’t care abt small things n we struggle with big issues which would haven’t  arose  if those small things had been taken care of..

Every individual is different from other and that makes oneself special, different and COMPLEX. We are actually surrounded by good, nice, beautiful and loving humans just like the environment . It is always pure until some external particles mix up and create some action reaction till the equilibrium arrives. That’s how we are, we interact, react and at times get into mess..but the only way out for that is to communicate and harmonize with each other till that equilibrium arrives that’s wat we call as a WIN-WIN situation….but is that really true? Practically possible?

Again a big “NO”…coz this way out is so obvious, straight , simple and meant for normal man…then why the hell  we should follow this as we don’t want a so called obvious, straight , simple and normal solution….cos we think, think and think…which in turn makes us different, unusually good/bad ultimately..COMPLEX…

Think how about talking to your not so good fren on a bad day wen u feel low..heard of pen frnz…mail buddies or phone fren….these are new concepts and relief to those who are not good in face to face communication….i guess the best way of expressing your views is writing…as written words are always powerful than spoken words…the more you write the more you find the depth of conversation..

The only weapon to bridge any gap is to fill the gap…just like the gaps in between the fingers is filled up when you get another hand to hold your hand and fill that gap …not only in your fingers but also in your life…

So all relations, all humans in your life are there to somehow to make your life simpler and happier…the only thing is to find those relations, care for them, and preserve them  for the entire life.

Happy RelationsJJ

M here M here..

M moving but my thoughts r not,
M here M here...
M walking but my shadow doesn't follow me,
M here M here
Surrounded by  my ppl but I feel vaccum 
M Flyin high beyond my reach, M waiting but dont kno y,
M here M here
I close my eyes but M not sleeping,
My thoughts are struggling M waiting but dont kno y....
M here M here....

Journey so far....

Being the youngest one in family, I have been pampered a lot. My childhood was the best time I had but studies made me almost a bookworm. Sincerity, Obedience and zeal to excel in everything have been my key traits in life. Though after completing my graduation, I couldn’t do much when it comes to applying my education in work, therefore proceeded for MBA in HR.

The moment I realized my core competence, I was with 3 yrs of exp in that field. It made me to feel that how well I can manage people can empathize with them and can correlate with their emotions. I believe emotional quotient is higher than intelligence quotient in me. My motto is to be remembered as a learned professional.

On personal front, I am passionate for Dance. I couldn’t devote much time earlier with my engagement in studies and work, therefore learning Jazz now. Though I am keen and

My hobbies include cooking and shopping. I am actually a shopaholic who loves to shop for my

I believe romance lies in minor things which are almost invisible, unnoticed but could be felt.  I believe when it comes to matching up of mental wavelength or compatibility, I am flexible enough to make things fall in place.

I do believe in GOD and am content in whatever he has planned for my life.